Sabado de Chorva (Ang Pagtatapos)

ANG NAKARAAN...

*door knob turns and lock button clicks*

ENTER: The Roommate

Nevermind na ang stats dahil hindi ko naman sya bet! Anyways, balik na tayo sa kwento.

OMG! May roommate nga pala ako!

Ang roommate ko na ilang beses nang gustong tumabi sa akin sa bed ko kahit pang-isahan lang at tinutulak ko na sya sa edge. Ang roommate na nakasimangot kaagad kapag may nadadatnan sya na mga friends ko na nakiki-chill sa room (okay, so most of them ay mga booking). Ang roommate na ang buong bayan alam na at sya na lang ang hindi nakakaalam na bading pala siya. Ang roommate na ayaw akong pagyosihin sa room kahit wala naman siya at ang pinaka malala ay ang roommate na dadating habang sarap na sarap na ako at naglalagay na ng lube sa mga bahagi ng katawan na dapat lagyan!

POOOF! Goodbye fucking a hot twink!

Pero wala akong magagawa. Kahihiyan ko ang nakasalalay. At nasabi ko na bang officemate din kami ni roommate? Goodluck na lang kung kumalat to sa work!

So as the knob was turning, biglang nagkaroon ng sariling buhay ang left arm ko at itinulak pabalik ang pabukas na na pinto. Maswerte pa rin at lumipat kami sa sahig ni Booking at malapit sa pinto dahil kung nag stay kami sa kama ko, isang malaking BUKINGAN ang magaganap!

Eto naman si Booking eh parang nag slowmo ang braincells at natagalan bago magregister kung ano ba talaga ang nangyayari. Akala siguro nagwa-wild lang ako at sinasandal ang mga kamay sa pintuan! HAHA!

Syempre ang super tense dahil hubo't hubad kami, covered in sweat and lube (for some parts) with matching sex hair. Si booking daig pa si flash sa pagbibihis habang ako, one hand on the door, one hand nagbibihis. Sa ganitong mga pagkakataon talaga lumalabas ang mga talento ng tao. Haha!

ROOMMATE: [Insert my name]!! Ano ba?! Buksan mo!!

AKO: Teka lang, Pesky Roommate!! Wag mo muna buksan!!

Syempre dahil sinabi kong wag buksan, binuksan ng gaga.

AKO: Pucha! Sabi ko teka lang!

At ako pa ang nagalit! haha!

Ganyan ang drama for 10 minutes.

Nag-iisip ako ng alibi for 10 minutes.

Pero wala eh so... binuksan ko na lang ako pinto.

BAHALA NA!

Um-enter si roommate. Nakita si Booking. Napakagat sa labi at napalunok ng imaginary tamod.

Si Booking naman, kumaripas ng takbo palabas. Na-trauma yata. Ginto na, naging bato pa. Haaay.

Nang lumabas na si Booking, tiningnan ako ni roommate ng maigi with his nakasimangot and betrayed face.

ROOMMATE: Ano yun [insert my name]?! Sabihin mo kung sino sya? Pano mo nagawa yun? Sa pamamahay pa mismo natin?? HAAAAW KUDYU?!?!

Aba aba! Umaastang jowa.

AKO: Che!! *roll eyes*

Sabado de Chorva

Sabado.

Halfday lang kami sa work nito kaya usually dito ako nakakagawa ng kababalaghan sa boardinghouse.

Pagkatapos ng ilang minutong pag-liliwaliw sa PeRsia..

ENTER: Booking of the Day.

Age: 20.

Body Build: Average with baby fats here and there. Just the way I like it!

Height: Below my waist. Hihi.

Looks: Well, hindi naman talaga ako particular sa looks basta chinito, chubby and higit sa lahat, discreet! Sadly hindi sya chinito. Mestiso lang. Pero sabihin na nating on a scale of 1 to 10 and ten being [Insert cute twink artista here. Sorry. Isang dekada na akong hindi nakakapanood ng TV. wala na akong kilalang batang artista.] he is a 7.5.

Okay so.. shortcut na lang tayo nakakatamad mag kwento ng mahaba.

Pagkatapos ng 20 minutes na foreplay sa bed, lumipat kami sa sahig kasi medyo nag-iingay na ang kama ko. Another set of the usual 69 and nip licking at pagkatapos nyang i-contradict ang sarili nya bilang hindi humahalik, chumuchupa at pagiging top, it's time to put my stick into the rabbit hole.

*door knob turns and lock button clicks*

ABANGAN...

Happy Together

The Third Option

"You picked the wrong guy!" I angrily shouted.

Before getting his keys out, he turned around, surprised to hear my voice.  "Please, Mak."

"You picked the wrong guy." I repeated with heavy breathing. "You made a really, really bad choice."

And with my will no longer able to contain my emotions, I barraged him with fiery words like a dragon so intent in destroying a small village. "What were you thinking!? That guy?! The one who you always had a fight with!? The one who dropped you like a hot potato?! Are you kidding me?! Have you learned nothing about the last six years you were together!?"

He was about to open his mouth and try to talk but I didn't give him the chance. I didn't give him the chance because I know that the second I hear his voice, I'll be under his spell again and the wall of anger I tried so hard to build will just crumble the second my eyes meet his. I won't let him weaken me again so I just let every words that I've been pushing down crawl out of my lips. "You're just gonna regret this. You know that, right? You're going to regret this! And then there's nothing you can do about it because it's too late. All you can do is get up there and start you're crappy, disappointing life that will never be nearly as happy as the one you could have with me." 

"Goodbye." and with all those emotions finally out, I turned my back and walked.

"Mak, wait." He said softly. His voice shaking with regret. 

My words hit him. If we had this confrontation three days ago, his words would've melted my heart. But everything I had was just drawn out already. I was doing this for myself. "Look, Ching, I am not here to win you. I'm here because I need to know that you know that you made the biggest mistake of your life."

Realizing that everything I said was true and that he's already waist deep on his own quicksand, he helplessly accepted his fate. "I know."

"Good." I mustered the last bit of my fake courage and anger just to say that word. It was a good thing I already turned my back. All the show I have put up would've been a flop if he saw my glassy eyes and the tears that have welled up, ready to trickle down my cheeks.

                                                             
That was the scene I have rehearsed a hundred times in my mind while following him to his place.

After weeks of avoing him and building up anger, I accidentally saw him after eating and decided to finally confront him.

But then his phone rang. It was his "Teddy Bear". His eyes got more chinky as his cheeks move up to accommodate a big smile. The dimple at the right side of his lips was too proud to show itself. And with a few throws of his head back as he laughs, he went inside his house.

He was happy.

And then it all just went away. That was it. In that moment I wasn't angry anymore. I could see that Ching was meant to be with another guy.

Sometimes, you think that the only choice is to swallow your anger or throw it into someone else's face, but there's a third option. You could let it go.
And only when you do that is it really gone and you could move forward.

And that, guys, was the perfect ending to a perfect love story.

It just wasn't mine.

Mine's still out there.

Waiting for me.

based on HIMYM

11:11

I don't know how it started but for the past few months I have been seeing 11:11's everywhere. On receipts, on highways and more often on clocks.

It freaks me out everytime I look in my computer and my phone and suddenly notice that it's 11:11. And becuase have been curious about what it really meant for the longest time and because the frequency of the recurrence of the 11:11s exceeds coincidence,

Google Search: 11:11 Phenomena

It turned out that it is a global phenomena and millions of people have also been experiencing it all over the globe. From teenagers to senior citizens, these synchronistic numbers seem to appear on a daily basis. What does 11:11 mean?

1) Many associate 11:11 with a wake-up code/alarm as they see it on digit clocks and watches. It can also be seen as a key to unlock the subconscious mind, our genetic encoded memories, that we are spirits having a physical experience, not physical beings embarking on a spiritual experience.

2) There is an entire network of people who consider themselves "lightworkers." Lightworkers have a mission in this lifetime to hold as much light for the planet as possible; in essence raising the frequency of love and one-ness on Earth. Seeing 11:11 on the clock is a wake up call or a reminder that you are a lightworker. 11:11 is an important wake up call for lightworkers to stop being caught up in the material world and start participating in the spiritual world. (This is one of my favorite!)

3) Others regard this number as a message from angels letting you know that you’re an “angel on earth,” with the same mission as a lightworker. 11:11 is “the calling card for beings that are half angels and half humans”.

4) Angels and Spirit Guides: Your guardian angel or spirit guide is trying to connect with you. Their courtesy call is an invitation to raise awareness that spirit needs to progress. A new age of "Spiritual Uplift" has begun on our planet. There are now literally billions of Celestial beings here, all of whom have been especially trained to assist with changing the course of this planet. Many more of these delightful Spirit Guardians are now ready to assist whoever will ask for their help. As a tribute to the centuries-long tenure of the original 1,111 Celestial Helpers, they have retained the customary 11:11 prompts. We are told that well over a million folks are being given these 11:11 prompts, and a glance around the web will tell you something big is happening.

5) Your life is either gaining or becoming more in balance when you see 11:11.  This might also be an affirmation that your life is in complete balance as well and the lesson you need to learn will appear before you.  “When the pupil is ready, the master appears”.

6) There are also some science stuffs talking about how the brain is like a computer, which relies on binary codes (1’s and 0’s).  In this premise, 11:11 is the binary code that awakens your dormant (junk) DNA.

The number 11 represents twin strands of DNA, so for some people, this is a sign of a DNA activation or upgrade.

There's also the Digital Time Code Theory which encapsulates several theories within the same premise.  11:11 unlocks your DNA and opens the subconscious mind through physically seeing these digital numbers and re-remembering why your brain was coded to remember the importance of 11:11.

7) Global Consciousness: When you see 11:11, you feel connected with the Universe and everyone else who is currently experiencing this phenomenon. You completely understand what “we are all one” means.

8)  11:11 presents you an opportunity to reflect on your spiritual purpose for being here.

9) Wake up call. 11:11 signifies your spiritual awakening, as this number seems to be predominantly noticed by those who have begun their spiritual journeys. It may also be seen as a code to unlock your subconscious mind.

10) Someone described this phenomena as "the universe tapping you on the shoulder".

11) Seeing 11:11 frequently creates synchronicities and changes in one's life to understand reality and where consciousness is going. You will attract the digits 11:11 until you understand the nature or reality.


Call me crazy but the 11:11 is clearly a grand scale worldwide phenomenon. Obviously, these reports are just a small sampling of something much larger.

Anyways, are there any guys out there who also have experienced 11:11?

Si Universe at Ako

0917-7252628

'Yan ang personal line ko kay Universe. Kanya-kanyang trip lang 'yan. Kapag may gusto akong ipagpasalamat, ikwento or hingin, isang text lang. Parang nasa kabilang linya lang si Universe. Isa sa mga contacts ko. Isa sa mga ka-close ko. Feeling ko malapit lang siya at mabilis nyang mabasa ang mga text ko sakanya.

Noong nakaraang linggo, kinailangan kong umuwi sa probinsya namin sa Surigao para sa libing ng Lolo ko. Wala akong kakilala na kaedad ko na makakausap. Wala din naman kasi akong ka-close sa mga pinsan at kamag-anak namin dun.

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Hey Universe, bakit ganito? Amg hirap naman i-let go ni Ching. Kahit gusto ko na syang kalimutan, bigla na lang syang pumapasok sa utak ko. Huhu. HELP!

18/08/2012
06:05:00 PM
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Anyways, salamat pala na-promote ako at nabigyan ng increase kahit hindi malaki. Okay na yun. Pmabayad din ng boardinghouse. Medyo hindi na din ako gigipitin masyado. SALAMAT!


18/08/2012
06:12:00 PM
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Andyan na pala si Lolo. Pakikumusta mo na lang ako ha. Pakisabi bisita na lang sya dito kung hindi sya busy dyan. 'Wag lang yung scary na bisita ha! Hehehe. Pakisabi din mag-enjoy sya sa paglalakbay nya. :)


18/08/2012
06:15:00 PM
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Amboring dito. Wala ako makausap. Haizt. Bakit malas talaga ako sa lovelife? Lahat ng gusto ko may sabit, di ako gusto or iba ang priority sa buhay. 'Yan ba yung paraan ng pagsasabi mo na mag-focus muna ako sa ibang bagay tulad ng board exam? Pero bakit mo naman kasi pina-meet sakin yung mga yun? Alam mo naman na yung mga ganung tipo ang kahinaan ko eh yun pa mga pinakilala mo sakin. Power tripping ka din eh no? Hahaha! Hmmm.. may kailangan ba ako matutunan dun?


18/08/2012
06:20:51 PM
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Sorry ha. Wala talaga akong ibang makausap eh. Ikaw lang. So hindi na yata tuloy yung labas namin ni Han sa Monday. Magpamasahe na lang kaya ako dun sa masahista na nakilala ko? Sana wala yung mga tao dun sa boardinghouse para homeservice na lang wehehehe. Sana may extra. hahaha! At sana mura. Hmm.. pero sige na nga. Mas hihilingin ko na lang na magaling sya magmasahe. ;)


18/08/2012
06:24:00 PM
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Puch. naalala ko na naman talaga si Ching. Sa lahat ng pinakilala mo, sakanya ako mas tinamaan. Amp! May sabeeet! Minsan nakakapag-isip ako ng hindi maganda. Huhu. Sorry mabilis ako ma-tempt eh kasi siya yung  kryptonite ko. Bakit kasi pinakilala mo pa? Huhu. Hirap nyang matanggal sa utak ko. Haizt. Hirap sobra. Tulungan mo naman ako pleeeeease. Seryoso.


18/08/2012
06:29:00 PM

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Haha! Pagkatapos kong basahin ulit at i-type dito lahat ng sent messages ko kay Universe noong umuwi ako, na-realize ko na nagreply pala siya sakin pag-uwi ko dito sa Cebu.

Nakapagpa home service ako ng masahe. Magaling at 100% clean.

Wala nang sabit si Ching.

0917-(SALAMAT)

from JackFuscoPhotography

Tanong

Pano mo nga ba masasabing in-love ka sa isang tao?

Dahil ba hindi siya mawala-wala sa isip mo? Dahil masaya ka kapag andyan sya? Dahil ba gusto mo siya palagi makasama? Mahalikan? Mahawakan? Mayakap? Maka-sex?

Sapat na ba ang mga dahilan na 'yon para ayain siyang makipag-relasyon?

Eh pano kung hindi niya kayang ibalik sa'yo ang emotional attachment na nararamdaman mo? Pa'no kung ang kaya n'ya lang ibigay sa'yo ay ang saya sa tuwing magkasama lang kayo?

Ano ang gagawin mo kung hanggang dun lang? Na kahit nakikita mong masaya din siya kapag kasama ka at ginagawa ang kung ano-ano na sa perspective mo ay ang mga ginagawa lang mga mag partners eh hindi pa din siya mapapa sa'yo? Anong gagawin mo kung ganun lang talaga? Na he's just enjoying his time being with you? Na may posibilidad din na he's enjoying his time kasama ng iba pa?

Two become one? You complete me? Kung iisipin mo nga naman, kahit naman partner mo ang isang tao ay hindi din naman siya sa'yo. Magka-ibang indibidwal pa din naman kayo at kumpleto ka naman bago ka pa nagka-partner. Pero bakit ba isa sa mga natural na instincts natin ay angkinin ang taong gusto natin?

At bakit ba pilit tayong pinapaghanap ng mga puso natin ng kapareha? Para may makasama kapag malamig ang panahon? Para may karamay sa problema? Para may ka-share sa lungkot? Sa kumot? Para magka-anak at bumuo ng pamilya? Pano kung bading ka?

Bakit din ba kapag may nagugustuhan ka, kapag naaappreciate mo ang ganda ng bukangliwayway, may kulang. Kapag na-promote ka sa opisina at may pa-party para sa'yo, hindi lubos ang saya. Kapag naakyat mo ang Osmena Peak at nakita kung gaano kaganda ang kabundukan at kakahuyan, may hinahanap ka pa din. Hinahanap mo yung kamay na hahawak ng mahigpit sa iyo habang inaabangan ang pag-sikat ng araw. Hinahanap mo yung natatanging boses na bibigkas ng "congrats!" dahil balewala sa'yo ang congratulations ng iba. Hinahanap mo yung init ng katawan na papawi sa lamig ng hamog sa taas ng kabundukan. Hinahanap mo yung taong yun. Hinahanap mo siya dahil gusto mong kasama mo siya sa lahat ng magagandang pangyayari sa buhay mo.

Pero pa'no nga kung hindi nya piliing maging andun? Complicated daw kasi. Hindi siya yung tipong "pang-relationship". Ayaw ka lang nyang masaktan. Blah. Blah. Blah.

Kaya mo pa rin bang i-maintain ang intensity ng nararamdaman mo kahit alam mong walang magiging resulta? Walang kasiguraduhan?

Gumagawa lang ba tayo ng isang bagay para gawin din sa atin? Sabi nga sa kasabihan diba, "To give is to receive"? But can we really give without the thought of receiving?

Minamahal ba natin ang isang tao para mahalin din tayo? O minamahal natin sila dahil, wala lang, mahal lang talaga natin. Dahil sila ang napili ng ating subconscious na mga sarili para maging dahilan ng saya, lungkot, pangungulila at pagkabigo. Dahil wala tayong control sa damdamin natin. Dahil kahit buong hukbo na ng mga concerned na kapamilya at kaibigan ang gustong i-untog ang ulo natin sa pader, hindi mo pa din tatanggalin ang helmet mo. Dahil kahit bigyan na tayo ng paraan para makalimutan sila, we're still willing to hold on. Dahil ba tanga tayo? Dahil ba umaasa na mag-bago pa ang ihip ng hangin? Dahil ba yun lang ang dahil para maramdaman natin na buhay tayo?

Kaya mo bang magmahal nang hindi umaasang mamahalin ka din nya?

Mula sa pelikulang:  Somewhere I Have Never Traveled

Anong

Isang malaking kawalan sa mundo ang isang tulad mo.

Para sa akin, sa mga matatalik mong kaibigan, mga kamag-anak, estudyante at kapwa mo guro na sa isang paraan ay nabahagian mo ng piraso ng iyong buhay, mananatili ang lahat ng iyong ala-ala.

 Mananatili kang inspirasyon bilang isang taong nagsumikap sa kabila ng mga problemang lumalamon sa bawat isa sa atin.

 Mananatili kang inspirasyon bilang isang kaibigan na kahit kalian ay hindi nang-iwan ng kaibigan sa ere.

Mananatili kang inspirasyon bilang isang anak, kapatid, tito at apo na mapagmahal at ginawa ang lahat para mabigyan ng maayos na pamumuhay ang pamilya.

Mananatili kang inspirasyon sa mga nagging estudyante at kapwa guro mo bilang isang propesyunal na hindi ginawang dahilan ang kahirapan para lang magkaroon ng magandang edukasyon. 

Para sa taong minsang naging pinakamahalaga sa buhay ko, maligayang paglalakbay sa’yo at maraming salamat.

Gloom Shroom

I woke up unusually early today. Did my daily routine in preparing for work and was at the office by six. My work starts at 8am. I practically did no work until 10 am and when I pushed myself into beginning my work for the day, I just can't seem to complete any of them. My mind is just everywhere to be productive.

I'm in gloom, apparently. I don't know exactly why.

Maybe I've been longing for Nurse for too long that it already took its toll. He never got out of my mind ever since. All my number's blocked in his phone. I'm hopeless.

Maybe because I'm feeling the effects of living alone in a far place.

Maybe I'm feeling the pressure of standing on my own feet without financial assistance from my father. Which reminds me that I'm critically running low on dough and with the payday still a week ahead.

Maybe I just have so much work to do that I've been missing almost all of my deadlines.

Maybe because I have to lay off some of my workers.

Maybe because a couple of colleagues are not coming back to work after the Holy Week.

Maybe I'm longing to just touch someone passionately.


*sigh*

Paper and Ink

When you find someone special, your world suddenly becomes a world of firsts.

The first meeting.

The first dinner.

The first long midnight walk.

The first official date.

The first holding of hands.

The first kiss.

The first night.

The first future plan.

Everything is perfect.

But when it all gets taken away from you, without warning and reason, would you chase and fight for the thing that could've made you perfectly happy or would you just accept it and bask in the warmth of the perfectly happy memory you made with him?

I don't want to live my life not knowing why eveything disappeared in just a blink of an eye.


He did tell you his reasons. Don't you think this is just the universe telling you not to go on with him?


But I'd hate myself if I don't go out there and not give the universe a fight! I'd hate myself if I don't try and then eventually live all my life wondering what could've happened if I fought as hard as I could for something the universe brought into my life and made me care about deeply.


But do you really want to stain the happy and pure memory you have with him with all the complications of life and the fight for a potential relationship? Don't you want to have something to think about, years from now, that just makes you smile? Don't you want a memory without heartaches, goodbyes and sadness?

I Miss You

To see you when I wake up

Is a gift I didn't think could be real.

It was raining. We were cold and wet. The sky gave us a reason to spend the night together. I was happy.

To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold Utopian dream.

"I'm starting to love you". It was bliss hearing it from you.

You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said
I miss you?

Yeah. I miss you. But I'm stripped of that luxury now.

I see you picture, I smell your skin
On the empty pillow next to mine.

I'm glad I took that time just staring at you. You're always smiling when I take a peek at you inside my mind. It makes me miss you even more. And why do I always smell your perfume from everyone?

You have only been gone ten days
But already I'm wasting away.

I'm pretty wasted. I'm always wasted.

I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon

I always see you in my dreams but I'm never sure if the Universe is ever going to let us cross paths again.

But I need you to know that I care and
I miss you.

I hope it still counts.

I Miss You by Incubus

Photo from here.

Burn Out Bright

What’s worse than someone you like finding that you talk about him in your blog and posting his faceless picture in it just a day before your birthday?

I guess it’s the fact that your on and off more-than-friends-but-less-than-lovers status has been completely cut off from the power supply and that he now knows all about your dirty little secrets.

In a twisted way, it’s kind of flattering, him finding about my blog because that just means there’s enough interest to research about me. And also in a twisted way, it’s good that he knows who’s he really dealing with. Though it cost the severing of all our ties.

So, the birthday lunch date is off along with all those  little future somethings.

I didn’t really think about it but posting blurred photos of your dates for the amusement of yourself and others is really a bad idea that’s why I’ve taken them all down. I guess that’s just karma for me.
 

The thing is, the Universe have been constantly reminding me to let him be even before the big reveal happened. But I’m really a stubborn kid so that’s my fault too. So, I got slapped in the face and kicked in the butt in return.

On a good note, I’ve met some great friends here in Cebu. The first group of straight people who kind of know that I’m gay. Well, I’ve been hanging around a gay forum before I joined their group and they can definitely see my posting history and I’m not trying hide it. I don’t know if they’ll believe it or not since they didn’t seem to  have any inklings when I met with them during our Sinulog event (which was tiring but so much fun!) but it's just a matter of time until they piece things together. I'd like to see how that event would go.

There’s also the part about my work. I finally got in a good construction company here in Cebu who’s paying me more than what I’ve expected. I’m just a few days old here but I wouldn’t wanna mess this one up because I like the environment and the people.

I’m back on track but honestly, I still don’t know where I’m going even though all I have to do is follow the road where I am at. For now, all I can do is to just count my blessings and smell the flowers as I go.

 photo from here

It's Really More Fun in the Philippines

In support of DOT's new tourism campaign, I did some #itsmorefuninthePhilippines photos just like in their ads and I don't care if it's the same catch phrase from Switzerland (from f*cking 1950's, people! 1950's!), the idea is very witty and very different. What I like about it is that it presents us with boundless possibilities for the ad and lets the netizens get involved in the campaign.

I did three photos. Sorry for the low quality. I only used MS Paint and I have very limited photos.

Automatic Tubig Machine. Dispenses cold water every P1.00

Saw these cute twins in SM Calamba sporting the same mohawks!

Okay, this one, I got from the net. This is the famous puso (hanging rice) which originated from Cebu.

Whanna learn how to make yours too? Click here.

It Gets Better

This song fom Bruno Mars speaks volumes and it will definitely be my 2012 song. All the heartaches, heart breaks, lies, deceits, failures, stupidity, passivity, disappointments... I'm leaving them behind. Great song for a new year. Thanks MKL for sharing!

There are some things in life that don’t go the way you want them to or the way you think they should, but you can’t dwell on these because you’ll miss out on other opportunities. Don’t let a bad day make you feel like you have bad life. Without bad days, how would you be able to know what a good day is like? You have to believe that when things are bad, you can change them. Things will get better for you. You should be alive to see them. =)

-WisdomQuotes

Today My Life Begins

I've been working hard so long
Seems like pain has been my only friend
My fragile heart's been done so wrong
I wondered if I'd ever heal again

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me I can feel a change (ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting, it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

Yesterday has come and gone
And I've learn how to leave it where it is
And I see that I was wrong
For ever doubting I could win

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me i can feel a change (ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting, it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

Life's to short to have regrets
So I'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
We only have one life to live
So you better make the best of it

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting, it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting, it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins...