I Miss You

To see you when I wake up

Is a gift I didn't think could be real.

It was raining. We were cold and wet. The sky gave us a reason to spend the night together. I was happy.

To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold Utopian dream.

"I'm starting to love you". It was bliss hearing it from you.

You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said
I miss you?

Yeah. I miss you. But I'm stripped of that luxury now.

I see you picture, I smell your skin
On the empty pillow next to mine.

I'm glad I took that time just staring at you. You're always smiling when I take a peek at you inside my mind. It makes me miss you even more. And why do I always smell your perfume from everyone?

You have only been gone ten days
But already I'm wasting away.

I'm pretty wasted. I'm always wasted.

I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon

I always see you in my dreams but I'm never sure if the Universe is ever going to let us cross paths again.

But I need you to know that I care and
I miss you.

I hope it still counts.

I Miss You by Incubus

Photo from here.

Burn Out Bright

What’s worse than someone you like finding that you talk about him in your blog and posting his faceless picture in it just a day before your birthday?

I guess it’s the fact that your on and off more-than-friends-but-less-than-lovers status has been completely cut off from the power supply and that he now knows all about your dirty little secrets.

In a twisted way, it’s kind of flattering, him finding about my blog because that just means there’s enough interest to research about me. And also in a twisted way, it’s good that he knows who’s he really dealing with. Though it cost the severing of all our ties.

So, the birthday lunch date is off along with all those  little future somethings.

I didn’t really think about it but posting blurred photos of your dates for the amusement of yourself and others is really a bad idea that’s why I’ve taken them all down. I guess that’s just karma for me.
 

The thing is, the Universe have been constantly reminding me to let him be even before the big reveal happened. But I’m really a stubborn kid so that’s my fault too. So, I got slapped in the face and kicked in the butt in return.

On a good note, I’ve met some great friends here in Cebu. The first group of straight people who kind of know that I’m gay. Well, I’ve been hanging around a gay forum before I joined their group and they can definitely see my posting history and I’m not trying hide it. I don’t know if they’ll believe it or not since they didn’t seem to  have any inklings when I met with them during our Sinulog event (which was tiring but so much fun!) but it's just a matter of time until they piece things together. I'd like to see how that event would go.

There’s also the part about my work. I finally got in a good construction company here in Cebu who’s paying me more than what I’ve expected. I’m just a few days old here but I wouldn’t wanna mess this one up because I like the environment and the people.

I’m back on track but honestly, I still don’t know where I’m going even though all I have to do is follow the road where I am at. For now, all I can do is to just count my blessings and smell the flowers as I go.

 photo from here

It's Really More Fun in the Philippines

In support of DOT's new tourism campaign, I did some #itsmorefuninthePhilippines photos just like in their ads and I don't care if it's the same catch phrase from Switzerland (from f*cking 1950's, people! 1950's!), the idea is very witty and very different. What I like about it is that it presents us with boundless possibilities for the ad and lets the netizens get involved in the campaign.

I did three photos. Sorry for the low quality. I only used MS Paint and I have very limited photos.

Automatic Tubig Machine. Dispenses cold water every P1.00

Saw these cute twins in SM Calamba sporting the same mohawks!

Okay, this one, I got from the net. This is the famous puso (hanging rice) which originated from Cebu.

Whanna learn how to make yours too? Click here.

It Gets Better

This song fom Bruno Mars speaks volumes and it will definitely be my 2012 song. All the heartaches, heart breaks, lies, deceits, failures, stupidity, passivity, disappointments... I'm leaving them behind. Great song for a new year. Thanks MKL for sharing!

There are some things in life that don’t go the way you want them to or the way you think they should, but you can’t dwell on these because you’ll miss out on other opportunities. Don’t let a bad day make you feel like you have bad life. Without bad days, how would you be able to know what a good day is like? You have to believe that when things are bad, you can change them. Things will get better for you. You should be alive to see them. =)

-WisdomQuotes

Today My Life Begins

I've been working hard so long
Seems like pain has been my only friend
My fragile heart's been done so wrong
I wondered if I'd ever heal again

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me I can feel a change (ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting, it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

Yesterday has come and gone
And I've learn how to leave it where it is
And I see that I was wrong
For ever doubting I could win

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me i can feel a change (ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting, it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

Life's to short to have regrets
So I'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
We only have one life to live
So you better make the best of it

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting, it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting, it's mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins...