So the results are out and yeah, I didn't make it.
I'm not really sure if I was shocked or was already expecting not to see my name on the list of passers. I guess I never really gave my best during those six months of parent-financed review here in Cebu. There's also the case of over confidence. I trusted heavily on the numbers I was getting in my review exams and the way I was constantly yapping about them on FB and Twitter just makes me a very big airbag. I'm blaming this all on my imaginary evil twin!
Seriously, I feel sorry for those guys who were really rooting for me to pass especially my parents. I don't know how was I able to let the best people in the world down. All those support and trust down the drain. Damn. I really am a jerk. But the important thing is that these people still haven't given up on me. That's why they are the best and I'm very lucky to have them.
Just like what they say, "True failure is remaining where you have fallen.", so I won't beat myself down about it anymore.
Afterall, it's not all bad.
I decided to remain here in Cebu to look for work and to continue my (self)review. Well, it's not really a decision per se but it's something that just came so naturally that I didn't really use any brain cells up. Like going with the river's flow.
I'll be travelling the road of redemption.
In a place far from home and I know no one. By myself. By my own means and without my father's money. It's scary but it is full of possibilities.
This is my turning point.
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