The Army Navy Bribe

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One good thing about dealing with contractors is that they sometimes tend to treat you to meals.

This time, it’s merienda at Army Navy. Now, I don’t usually give in to these kind of “bribes” but since the contractor’s representative is dashingly handsome, I couldn’t pass up the opportunity. It’s just too bad he has his colleague in tow. Besides, I’ve been wanting forever to sample, as they say, one of Cebu’s best burgers.

Anyways, the burger is good but not good enough for its steep price. P200.00 for their Double Burger. For those fond of the sweet Pinoy burgers, this is not for you. It’s pepper-spicy. Though, it could fill you up like a major meal but I wouldn’t be back there on my own will for a long time.

So back to the handsome contractor, he has been unusually generous that day. Offering to also giving me a ride and some smoke and some small talk. That was a good breather from our contractor-sub-contractor relationship which usually just circles around all things (and problems) regarding the completion of the project. Or maybe it was just a bribe so I’ll speed up my recommendation for their billing?

Oh well, he’s straight and has a girlfriend. I just wanted to relish that good deed that lead us to be locked alone in the comfort room of a restaurant. Details? This one’s for your wild imaginations.

Burn Out Bright

What’s worse than someone you like finding that you talk about him in your blog and posting his faceless picture in it just a day before your birthday?

I guess it’s the fact that your on and off more-than-friends-but-less-than-lovers status has been completely cut off from the power supply and that he now knows all about your dirty little secrets.

In a twisted way, it’s kind of flattering, him finding about my blog because that just means there’s enough interest to research about me. And also in a twisted way, it’s good that he knows who’s he really dealing with. Though it cost the severing of all our ties.

So, the birthday lunch date is off along with all those  little future somethings.

I didn’t really think about it but posting blurred photos of your dates for the amusement of yourself and others is really a bad idea that’s why I’ve taken them all down. I guess that’s just karma for me.
 

The thing is, the Universe have been constantly reminding me to let him be even before the big reveal happened. But I’m really a stubborn kid so that’s my fault too. So, I got slapped in the face and kicked in the butt in return.

On a good note, I’ve met some great friends here in Cebu. The first group of straight people who kind of know that I’m gay. Well, I’ve been hanging around a gay forum before I joined their group and they can definitely see my posting history and I’m not trying hide it. I don’t know if they’ll believe it or not since they didn’t seem to  have any inklings when I met with them during our Sinulog event (which was tiring but so much fun!) but it's just a matter of time until they piece things together. I'd like to see how that event would go.

There’s also the part about my work. I finally got in a good construction company here in Cebu who’s paying me more than what I’ve expected. I’m just a few days old here but I wouldn’t wanna mess this one up because I like the environment and the people.

I’m back on track but honestly, I still don’t know where I’m going even though all I have to do is follow the road where I am at. For now, all I can do is to just count my blessings and smell the flowers as I go.

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Death is Your Gift

I have noticed for a time now that deaths have been happening around me a lot. Yes, I know that people die everyday but these people are personally or somehow connected to me.

I don't exactly remember who they were but I know that there have been deaths of relatives of people I know earlier this year. I think one was an ex-officemate's and some from casual acquaintances.

It didn't really occur to me back then until there have been a few deaths from my relatives as well.

A second degree aunt. An aunt. A second degree step uncle. A step uncle. A sister.

A fuck buddy's niece. A good friends lolo. A new friend's lolo. An ex officemate's lolo.

All of which are just a few weeks or months apart.

The year haven't even ended and yet I've known and witnessed more deaths than any human being is allowed to bear. I try to shrug this off, but now I fear for the sick ones that I know.

I've only talked to one friend about this but I was saddened by his reaction.

"Naku! Sana hindi ako yung sumunod! Marami pa akong gustong gawin sa buhay!"

I know he meant it as a joke but I could smell fear from his words. He seemed to actually believe that I was like this bringer of death that wrecks havoc to the lives of people around him. I hope it was not the reason why a supposed gang get together was not pushed hard enough into fruition. It's very laughable. Especially when he talks openly about me being just as part of his family as all his blood kins are. But I can't really blame him. Superstitions run deeply in our blood. Especially when we think our lives are at stake. I guess I'd  be expecting some "friends" to suddenly want nothing to do with me when they know about this too.

I'm not really the superstitious type but it just unnerves me to be surrounded by this many deaths. I can't explain it either. Coincidence? Omen? Am I just just more aware of deaths now than before? I don't know.

Now I feel such a freak.

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